attended the youth group's first prayer meet session last night. it was ok i guess. i was kinda expecting something like what shauna used to conduct in sac but, hey, different church, different methods. last night kinda reminds me of pc class with dr s. read and discuss the passage type. maybe i expected something like praise and worship session, not so lit tutorial like. but then, this was only the first session. see how lah.

the session itself was ok. again, reminds me of pc tutorial. had some personal sharing. bit malu when i said that i had no reaction to the reading. but it's true. nothing really struck me. i have this problem all the time. that's why i sometimes don't say a single word in lit class, cos i don't have a reaction to the passage. maybe i listen too much to bible dramatisation on 'your story hour'. shrugs.

actually, i don't really remember much of last night's session. something about outcasts and comfort zone thingy. bit awkward doing sharing about it. sensitive topic for me i guess. erm...ya... i talked about things that, given my way, would never ever see light. ya, well, awkward.

nick closed the session with a quote. something about pray like god controls everything but work like there's no god. ok. sure, i get the theory behind it. it's what got me where i am in the first place. it seems as if our prayer and our work is ... independent of each other. bit hard to explain. pls don't nag me about this. it's like, prayer is prayer, work is work, never shall the twain meet. why bother praying so hard if i'm gonna have to work my butt off anyway, and vice versa? ok, i'm confusing myself now. better stop.

reading the gospel reading last night about the transfiguration. i noticed something interesting. i'm still in the bible parallels mode. this scene mirrors the scene of jesus' baptism. the voice from heaven and all. instead of holy spirit appearing, it's moses and elijah. at the end, the desciples were told not to tell. but i'm wondering, why? i assume that during the baptism, people already heard the heavenly voice and saw the dove/holy spirit. so why does jesus want the disciples to keep quiet about the vision?

next, i'm wondering if there's significance in the voice repeating the same lines. "this is my son the beloved etc..." the disciples are already convinced that jesus is the messiah plus the voice at the baptism would be good enough. so why say it again? i had this thought. maybe the transfiguration equals confirmation? jesus going through rite of passage like us. that's why the voice repeats the line? hmm...

on the whole, the session was ok. since i'm the type that finds it hard to say no, and since people are using the guilt card on me, probably i'll continue going. nothing better to do anyway.

p.s. my results are coming out, predicted date 4 march. so i'll wait for my results before seeing if i'll get a proper job. so please stop asking me about it. also, i was reading my own blog, and suddenly i have this feeling of deja vu. scary.